I don't know which way is up sometimes.
{I swear I came to this webpage for a reason... Is that water on the bathroom floor. <Getting a towel...> Oh, forgot to turn the nightlight on. Should I shower now? No, I should finish email and check on... Ooh, haven't posted for the ministry today: doing that now. I forgot to email this person, so doing that... Wait, I need to check my calendar. Right! That's why I was on that page...}
Yeah, so uh, it's kinda like that. Yesterday I was singing along to KLove while uploading pictures from Creationfest and checking charts for work remotely. I tell people that my mind is like an octopus: if all the tentacles aren't busy, it'll start walking away. Somehow, I was never diagnosed with ADD as a child. (And I got by, but that's another story for another campfire, er, blog.)
Really, I need to stop thinking altogether sometimes. If I think about the calendar, I think about appointments and due dates. Then I think about how to rob Peter to pay Paul. Then I think about which medical things to hold off to avoid more money issues. Then I think about the fall and looming soccer schedules, Religious Ed and CYM curriculum, dry needs for volunteers and participants in some places, and the inability to stay on task in other areas. Then I have heart palpitations. (No, that's not a literal medical concern of mine - Thank God!)
Either I start carrying Ativan and a paper bag at all times, or else I really need to learn to let go and let God. I have two kids, a working husband and a full time job - these are blessings, not burdens! Cavities and muscle spasms are peanuts compared to real problems some people face. Still, the cross you bare sucks the most for you - because it's yours. Dear Jesus, give me strength, and fortitude, and wisdom, and knowledge, and a clue... I'm like a blind duck searching the desert for a lake, and I forgot I have wings.
I just bookmarked all the YM resource links I wanted to save and cleared out my inbox. That was a task! Yay, accomplishment! Now to get to that tack list I mentally created for myself to do this week while I'm on non-stage-crew-vacation. Oh look, it's Friday night of said week. Yup - it's like that. On the upside, which I must continuously remind myself, I started a new series of bedtime stories for my kids (Chronicles of Prydain) so Mama points! Lloyd Alexander to the rescue, but if only I had a real Hen Wen.
Is blogging on my tack list, no. But it's a release, a much needed release. Now I do need to send that email, and I do need to wrestle that list a little more before bed. Tomorrow, some of those things can be handled with children. It's a definite possible maybe. (zoning out...) Okay - back on ta- SHINY!
